REMISSION - 12/11/09

has life been all that you dreamed?
has it left you torn at the seams?
have you emptied your lungs in the form of screams?
as you were ripped to shreds by bad life choices

something has been missing within me
a huge void, a crater the size of the moon
the missing item has been the words, inner peace
cause of my emotional highs and lows
in which i was a puppet to

they controlled me
forcing me into negative places
head down, i know its hard to believe
they would put the bag over my head
i couldn't control them
no one really understands
tying me to the whipping post of deception
they controlled me, sadly

i know what i can be now
medicine has blessed me and pushed me forward
not looking back at the car crash of a few bad years
levelity is now my favorite word
this word is married to happiness to me

fighting my guts out to survive a fight
that i would've never won in a million years
it was an all out death match
i was on the bottom in a headlock
receiving punches to my face with no way out

i survived somehow
i believe in all that i dream now
cause my dreams are becoming reality
not being tortured by MYSELF ANYMORE
the demons have gone into remission

i do still cause myself a fright
thinking those dreaded words "What If"
but you see, i will be more prepared for war
i am the newly crowned rich man, darkness is poor
a poor excuse for existence
but its all i knew for my whole life
when backs were turned to me

Tags: Depression Mental Illness Poem

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