Skya,  I am a fellow beliver in Christ, as well as have bipolar.  When i saw your post, i did some thinking. God understands our illness, whether mental or physical. We live in a broken sinful world, we are all sick with sin. I firmly believe, and there is evidence in the Bible, that once we give our life over to Jesus we are saved, and nothing, not even our illness can take that away. God does understand. When we "crash" we aren't in our "normal or right" state of mind. By that i mean its not what our mind and heart are truly feel and believe. Its the illness talking, not our soul. God knows our true hearts and mind. He sees us when we are sick and His heart breaks for us. I wouldn't worry about being sent to hell if you, in your sickness, say there is no God, but in your health you know Him, trust Him.....your a Jesus Freak....there's nothing better to be!

Hi Skya,

Go to the search window of videos and search 7 levels of consciousness.  This will take you to a Sean Blackwell video.  Watch this video and the videos linked to it.  Sean is part of a movement that links spirituality with bp.  The movement is about embracing the experiences and not simply labotomizing them.  If you can't find the video here, google bipolar or waking up, Sean Blackwell or New Light Beings.  All very very exciting stuff.  Good luck!

Joel