I have learned much since I first began my journey on this website. I have learned not to claim that which Yahweh, God, the Creator of ME does not call me. He does not call me depressed. He does not say I am sick. Thus, I am not. Satan says I am, or that it will come back. You may think this, too. How can I claim that I am COMPLETELY, 100% HEALED? No, not 100% Infinitely. I am BETTER than I would have been had I not had this disease, ever. Yet, I do claim this, and I AM HEALED!!!! I am not j... Read More

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FINALLY!!!!!  I just found a place where I belong   (originally posted 02/04)

Yikes!!!!! New system to learn.  Gonna hang with this site though because, well, refer back to the home thing.  I got a comment on here a couple of days or so that said something to the effect that "not to be nosy, but exactly where is that?"  Sorry two kids and job and a plethora of diagnoses makes life a little full. 

First, I prefer nosey than assuming and definitely m... Read More

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After 36 years, my depression was downgraded to biploar NOS (not otherwise specified). That means that rather than going manic for days or weeks or even months, my mania lasts approximately 2 hours, then I crash.

In my head, I think I'm at the attitude of, "Ok. So I have this. Let's see how well we can fix it."

What is petrifying me though is the fact that I have this illness and am a Jesus Freak. I'm Catholic, and I'm very much in love with God. My fear is going to sound truly... Read More

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its kind of frustrating when youre denied the ability to live up to your potential due to a mental illness that nobody in authority wants to or even tries to understand...you spend all youre nergy fighting to get better and your denied access to certain basic rights like an education...or a decent job...the one thing i know is that the best people on this planet are the ones who have suffered and survived................

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I Thought...

I thought I could just stab myself 25, no 27 times…. That’s it “27”. I don’t even want answers any longer. Their is no real explanation now is there Perhaps I wasn’t meant to be alive past my age. Thinking of bleeding from 27 different wounds that I inflict... Read More

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