in 1998 or 1999 i was watching the news talk about the forest fires and short time after an image appeared in my head. it was the image of a very large airship 1200' in length with a small jet engine to help power the ship for speed and to act as a water pump.

 with it drawn out on paper in detail i took it to a friend who was a LA city fire fighter , but, had quit to start a commercial sprinkler system installer for businesses to bring them up to fire codes. when i showed... Read More

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 i will go out and make some contacts with people about i having mental illness, oh, wait, this is something i have already done. when i finally decided to share what i have lived with all my life and how certain things affect me. you should have seen the look on their faces and i mean at work and relatives on my wife's side of the family.

  but, you know what it didn't last long due to i not giving them any impressions i was any different now then i was before. the deeper i... Read More

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  who made you aware of this condition, stigma? how did you get there to the point that you are different from other people? have you ever stopped long enough to see that nobody has the correct way to be with everything in life? would you like for me to share how many times i have broken the mold which should have created a feeling associated with stigma. imagine, what if, an infant could relate to fear and being humiliated the infant would never have learned how to do any... Read More

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http://www.latimes.com/videobeta/watch/?watch=f41 491ea-d9fb-4bd6-9b75-3be5df4e7 e7b&src=front

This is about 7 minutes long and will blow you away.  There is an accompanying article, but the video speaks for itself.

And again, thank you Joey for this site, and for the great stuff in Iraq.  The UStream was amazing.

<------------Joey in Iraq!  Can't believe I found this emoticon!

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A bunch of crap went wrong today! It has put me in a bad, down mood. It is a lot of things that I am powerless at this moment to do anything about...I'm just stuck sitting here waiting...which is worse. I am so angry!

So I will sit here and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes, even though I want to quit. I will sit here and watch stupid TV, even though I want my house clean. I will snatch up the phone but not answer it...as long as it still works.

And all of this...ALL OF THIS...i... Read More

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