As many of you know I have spent a life battling Mental Illness in the form of Bipolar Disorder a mood disorder characterized by extreme highs and extreme depression. After years of struggling and taking so many pills and combinations of pills to treat it seemed that I could not find a good balance between health and having any personality that was non-medicated I reached a turning point.
  Over a year ago I once again slipped into the black shroud of major depression, a depressi... Read More

2 comments View Entry

Nuts, Crazy, Insane, Shitzo, Bonkers, Not Quite Right, these are a few of the terms people use to describe people living with mental illness and by no means the only ones there are hundreds if not thousands. No other illness has so many adjectives, don't believe me just try and find other names for Diabetics. So why this? why my condition? Why is there such a stigma on Mental Illness?

 I have felt the sting of the stigma of mental illness, have felt the nervous disconnect&nbs... Read More

1 comments View Entry

After 36 years, my depression was downgraded to biploar NOS (not otherwise specified). That means that rather than going manic for days or weeks or even months, my mania lasts approximately 2 hours, then I crash.

In my head, I think I'm at the attitude of, "Ok. So I have this. Let's see how well we can fix it."

What is petrifying me though is the fact that I have this illness and am a Jesus Freak. I'm Catholic, and I'm very much in love with God. My fear is going to sound truly... Read More

2 comments View Entry

Testing, testing!

0 comments View Entry

Quiet and sneaky you crawled out of my heart

At times I can’t tell where I end and you start

When I am strong - you are weak, hard to see

But when you take over I cease to be me

No one’s sure what to call you – disease, illness, disorder

To... Read More

2 comments View Entry