YESTERDAY - 04/23/2010

pain needs love
even pain feels lonely sometimes
pain makes you appreciate happiness
happiness used to be my enemy

depression is my heroin
you dont understand unless you feel it within
i used to like being low
its a familiar space that i know
thats where my love flowed
when i wanted to open up to someone

yesterday is dead and buried
the grave digger is throwing dirt on the grave
i stand before the casket and wave
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SOUL - 04/28/10

i rest my soul
evertyime i take a dose
for many meds, i am the host
they control my mind
they help me find
happiness
that i cannot see or attain
on my own
hope was gone
but they have restored peace
to my weary head
tortured for years
by my own brain waves of dire dreams
they are silent for now
the deafening screams
that tore me apart at the seams
4 seasons are pure
living within the boundaries
of medication
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My life sucks. Over the past 2 months, this is the story of my life in snippets: I lost my best friend. I have been alone with my feelings. I haven't written a poem. Poems help me purge my feelings. So, my feelings are eating my insides, like a deadly parasite. I kicked my husband out a half hour ago. My house flooded from last week's storm (yes, east coast girl here). Although I don't have another job and I am a 10+ year educated professional who was always be... Read More

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TRUST - 12/18/2009

hold my hand
look into my eyes
trust me honestly
i repeat, trust me

i understand your pain
i understand the word "insane"
when the wave crashes down
stand firm, i will not let go
you don't even know me, but thats ok

i am the same as you
i am living on the other side of the fence now
i made it somehow
it can be done
it will change one day for the better

i speak from experience
not from blind truth
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REMISSION - 12/11/09

has life been all that you dreamed?
has it left you torn at the seams?
have you emptied your lungs in the form of screams?
as you were ripped to shreds by bad life choices

something has been missing within me
a huge void, a crater the size of the moon
the missing item has been the words, inner peace
cause of my emotional highs and lows
in which i was a puppet to

they controlled me
forcing me into negative places
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